Self Portrait With Nightfall
Katharine Coles | Poetry
Say you were born with a congenital absence, one
You can see, a space you should have
A digit or a limb to flutter and wave at
The world, hang out on the air—or you’re missing
Something invisible, a chemical in the brain that tells you
Smile now, a piece of gristle your heart needs
To beat in synchrony. Mutter all you want: in this
You are different from nobody, even in your feeling
Alone at night when darkness brings itself down
And all you find gazing out from where you are is light
Blazing the house across the way, where you imagine
Neighbors you haven’t met baking potatoes
Or settling down in front of the TV, looking to fill
Another long vacancy. You know that light
Catching the grass almost as far as the sidewalk
Will never reach you. See? Out back, across the ravine,
A campfire burns at eye level, suspended. Have you
Forgotten where the ground is? Before the flames flicker
Shadows with nowhere else to go. September, nights begin
Shivering, the first breath from the north. Where will those
Ghosts sleep when the snow flies? And where will you be
When the field has already erased itself?
Katharine Coles’s fifth collection, The Earth Is Not Flat, was written under the auspices of the National Science Foundation’s Antarctic Artists and Writers Program; ten poems from the book, translated by Klaus Martens, appeared in the summer 2014 issue of the German journal Matrix. Her sixth book, Flight, will be out in 2016. She was a 2012-13 Guggenheim Fellow.
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