Prayer During Winter Solstice
Lauren Kalstad | Poetry
traveling south on a steely stretch of highway
another Texas winter draws sweat from my lip
yellowing fields & a big sky, painfully blue
a swallowing expanse without a single cloud
cows scatter in fields muzzle-deep in the sweetgrass
& like these creatures I have gained a sort of freedom
a little box of quiet, mine for two days with a lake view
jammy sun melting into the water & even in solitude
this knotted fist of wet muscle continues to beat wife mother
as far south as I fly like a broad-winged hawk carves the sky
they say what loves you always returns after a dormant season
as sure as the dark swims back to us each plum-colored night
I have loved many people fiercely but what about love
like a hand cupping water, or the final breath before sleep
softly, openly – all your armor blown away like a dandelion
a love that doesn’t ask for much but occasional room to fly
somewhere on that highway I stopped for gas & saw a man
washing each pump in slow circles so they shone in the sun
to know that all things in tender hands can be made new
that each year lays its fine blanket of dirt on all of us
I’ve heard that far from this patch of rural countryside
there is an eternal flame that burns through water & storm
deep in the dusky shale some call it marvel miracle — though
I’ve never glimpsed this burning it’s enough to know it exists
to know it’s out there ablaze after thousands of years seen
by so many eyes a light dancing even through its own death
& what finally speaks of winter here in the south here are the trees
their bare tangle twisted branch with branch cagey and leafless
hardly any color beyond the earthy spectrum of browns & golds
yet inside the possumhaw berries still sing their brilliant red
sprung only from the female trees aglow in the passing landscape
so bright, so alive, you would swear the woods were on fire
Lauren Kalstad is a poet, essayist, and professor. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Tupelo Quarterly, New Orleans Review, World Literature Today, The Southeast Review, and The Rumpus. She is a nominee for both Best of the Net and Best Spiritual Literature. Kalstad earned her MFA from New York University and currently teaches at the University of North Texas. An enrolled member of the Cherokee Nation, she lives in Dallas with her husband and daughter.