
Ekphrasis for an Alcoholic
Caitlin Dwyer | Poetry
This is the seduction of haystacks:
sun’s shift melts dismal to beryl, warms to royal blue.
A patient person can wait out the worst
with a hot mug of coffee. A mere half-hour
and everything’s new—I’m changing, you say.
Amend: I want to change. You mean time
brings a fresh canvas. Plum to pinot noir,
fruit to ferment. But blue has already sifted
through your body like a saltshaker—
the blue-black of 2 a.m., rotted kernel,
blemish blooming in the wort. What is the sidle
from sorrow to pity, from never to unbutton me?
What is the unbluing we require each morning,
warming our hands on earnest talk? Maybe today
threshed stooks will leach sublime: orchid at the edges,
nectarine lap of grain. Maybe blue is also the color
of singing someone you love to sleep.
You owe me, I say, meaning promises are
a locked room: shapeless shadows,
all the furniture covered, contusions
of dried flowers, ottomans like lumps of clay.
If you can sway me, I’ll crack the shades, maybe.
You hold your hurts like plucked raspberries
in one palm. I hold your hand and try to read
the creek of jam smeared across your skin. I don’t know
what fortune means. We’ll see what the light lets in.
Caitlin Dwyer is a writer from Oregon. She has studied writing at the Rainier Writing Workshop and the University of Hong Kong. Her poetry has appeared in journals such as Stirring, Pangyrus, Thrush, Beloit Poetry Journal, Intima, and Notre Dame Review. Her essays have appeared in Longreads, Narratively, and Creative Nonfiction and been honored with awards and fellowships. She teaches at Portland Community College. When not writing, she is either in the woods or playing ’the floor is lava’ with her kids. www.caitlindwyer.com.