December, Guarded by Grandmothers
Jen Jabaily-Blackburn | Poetry
Graceful bookends, one of you arriving
on the crown of December,
the other on the tip of its tail.
Watchful guardians of the door,
binders of wanderings.
Near anagrams for smother-danger.
Spellcasters with cut-glass shakers:
dusty pepper, rice-studded salt,
meat tenderizer for jellyfish stings.
Your beloved faces repainted
in compact mirrors, curls
quickly marshaled in plate glass.
Eyes hardened to fox-points
reflected in rear-views to halt
a backseat’s nonsense.
In one refrigerator,
Romeo & Juliet; in the other,
cold sliced tongue.
The Talmud suggests Adam
killed the world’s sole unicorn
to thank the hidden voice for ending
the first season of short, dark days.
December, I hold my squalling daughter
to my chest inside my coat
in Our Lady of the Valley’s
parking lot, the neighborhood’s
last portal, last turnaround.
To go further spills into gone away.
I wish I had had a calmer heart.
A sound for her of the sea.
From nowhere, a soft peach
street lamp flickers on & the snow
caught in its path lulls us quiet.
Both of us now
all tired grateful eyes.
Enchanted.
I assumed,
& how wrongly, a what-to-do
would birth itself
once she arrived. A literal guide.
My graceful bookends, I will
savor any sign.
I am—
we are—
we are doing my best.
Jen Jabaily-Blackburn is the author of the full-length collection Girl in a Bear Suit (Elixir Press, 2024) and the e-chapbook Disambiguation (Salamander/Suffolk University, 2024). She is the winner of the Louisa Solano Memorial Emerging Poet Award from Salamander, selected by Stephanie Burt. Recent work has appeared in or is coming soon from Villain Era, The Common, On the Seawall, SIR, Arkansas International, Palette Poetry, & Fugue. Originally from the Boston area, she now lives in Western Massachusetts with her family and serves as the Program & Outreach coordinator for the Boutelle-Day Poetry Center at Smith College.