
Just Before Bed
Robert Wood Lynn | Poetry
You asked me who I was and I was afraid
to say so, as if my name was a fence around me
only recently overgrown. Like my name was up
there fixing a weathervane in a thunderstorm.
Or like it was trying to bury a dead animal at night
with the ground already froze. As if my name was
the exact number of minutes to sunrise. Or a bird
any old scientist can tell what it doesn’t eat just by
looking at its beak. Like a list of all the titles I ever
checked out from the library, against a list of what
they even had at that little two story thing in my old
town. Like my name was a book I reread years on
drenched in embarrassment at how many good parts
my memory invented. Like my name was my mother
retelling that one story on her first glass in years—
well any story almost—but specifically the possum
under the kitchen sink in that first cabin together.
Like my father in the story, who on the insistence
of his frightened wife, loads a gun as an act of love.
Like my father in the world, who could never point
a loaded anything at anything. Like the kind of love
that squeezes in from the cold and makes a bed
in the old sponges kept in that cabinet just in case
they could be useful later. Like a thing only looking
its way to keep keeping warm. Like playing dead
in hopes of never hurting nobody. Like coming back
to life in a full throated surprise. Like your name
now in my voice. Or my name in yours. Or ours
stretched out years after, like arms around us.
Robert Wood Lynn is a poet from Virginia. His debut collection Mothman Apologia (2022 Yale University Press) was the winner of the Yale Younger Poets prize and Kate Tufts Discovery Award. His work has been featured in American Poetry Review, The Atlantic, The Nation, Poetry Magazine and other publications. He teaches poetry at Juilliard.